Honestly, my senior year has been quite uneventful. Although my classes are hard, nothing to point out has happened to me, as of today. Lately it seems as if the harder I try the harder school gets. The stress keeps building everyday. I hope I start to stress less because it is driving me crazy. I can recall a time, not so long ago, when I told myself “This is the year I get stuff done.” but as time passes I can now see that’s not as easy as it seems. I’m not going to lie, I’m behind in a few classes and I’m not trying hard enough but I know for a fact that I can catch up quickly. My inability to change brings out the worst in me.
I, like many others, am a huge procrastinator. I believe that is my biggest flaw. According to my teachers I have potential but my lack of motivation will be my downfall. Currently, I’m working on a lot of econ work, guitar work, chemistry work, physiology work, and although it may seem silly I like to work out. I look forward to the point where I can sit quietly in class and do nothing because I have passed all my classes. My sleepless nights spent doing homework will not be in vain as the blood of my enemies drips from my blades. In this case my enemy would be my classes and my blades would be my mentality.
Grades will be coming out soon and I may only be on pace in about three. I know, that’s terrible. I guess I won’t be sleeping for a while, but as long as I get what needs to be done over with I’ll be fine. My goal is to pass every class I am enrolled in plus algebra 2 which I am not yet enrolled in. Anyways, I’m glad to be in the Lindsay High School Guitar Honors Club. Currently there are eight of us but we are split into a quartet because we just got a few new members. The quartet I am in is great. We will be performing on soon and I’m stressing out. If I do not pass four classes I will not be able to perform but I am trying very very hard in order to catch up on the classes I am behind in. Hopefully, I can do it. Just as Shia Labeouf says “Just do it, yesterday you said tomorrow, so just do it!” those words motivate and inspire me to get stuff done and be a better me. I feel as if I can do much more than I believe is possible but to accomplish my goal I first need to defeat my bad habit of procrastinating.
All in all I hope everything goes well, I know it is up to me to get everything done but the future is not set in stone. I wish to accomplish a lot in my life.
I, like many others, am a huge procrastinator. I believe that is my biggest flaw. According to my teachers I have potential but my lack of motivation will be my downfall. Currently, I’m working on a lot of econ work, guitar work, chemistry work, physiology work, and although it may seem silly I like to work out. I look forward to the point where I can sit quietly in class and do nothing because I have passed all my classes. My sleepless nights spent doing homework will not be in vain as the blood of my enemies drips from my blades. In this case my enemy would be my classes and my blades would be my mentality.
Grades will be coming out soon and I may only be on pace in about three. I know, that’s terrible. I guess I won’t be sleeping for a while, but as long as I get what needs to be done over with I’ll be fine. My goal is to pass every class I am enrolled in plus algebra 2 which I am not yet enrolled in. Anyways, I’m glad to be in the Lindsay High School Guitar Honors Club. Currently there are eight of us but we are split into a quartet because we just got a few new members. The quartet I am in is great. We will be performing on soon and I’m stressing out. If I do not pass four classes I will not be able to perform but I am trying very very hard in order to catch up on the classes I am behind in. Hopefully, I can do it. Just as Shia Labeouf says “Just do it, yesterday you said tomorrow, so just do it!” those words motivate and inspire me to get stuff done and be a better me. I feel as if I can do much more than I believe is possible but to accomplish my goal I first need to defeat my bad habit of procrastinating.
All in all I hope everything goes well, I know it is up to me to get everything done but the future is not set in stone. I wish to accomplish a lot in my life.
Half-Way There
The date is December 2nd, my last entry was September 22nd, and a lot has changed. Since my last journal entry I’ve had about 3-4 guitar gigs, which have all turned out great. My mindset has also changed. I no longer want to procrastinate, but want to complete everything before had. Of course it is easier said than done, but I have been working very hard. The reason I changed was due to Ms. Moore, she gave me a speech and at first I honestly didn’t think about it much, but now I pretty much want to be better because of her. It may seem silly, but it’s true. Anyways, I still have a ton of work to do and I plan on completing all of it.
Due to me procrastinating badly, I have to complete 3 mts in order to pass the first semester of physiology. There are about 3-4 weeks till the semester is over, but I will and am trying my very hardest. Besides that class I am doing great in the others, actually I recently completed a level 4 project for Econ. I need to present it still, but I stayed after school for 3 hours trying to complete it and still needed more time. Another class I am doing great in is of course guitar. Ms. Wills is a great teacher and without her I have no idea where I would be. About a week or two ago I even applied to csu’s with Ms. Wills.
Even with the help of my teachers I seem to be struggling. Like I stated earlier, I procrastinated a lot and fell behind in Econ and Physiology, but now I have overcome one of the classes I got behind in. I still have a lot to do in order to get an on pace mark in all 7 of my classes, so of course that is something I must do. Besides my classes, the senior project itself is easy. The biggest problem with the senior project would be my life map because I honestly don’t know anything eventful in my life nor do I know what the future will hold. I’m mainly enjoying the journal entries because I like to look back at what I have said and just laugh because I always try to change and know it is just way easier said than done. Everything in my senior has been really fun, except for the waking up early part, but that’s just life.
I feel like I have been supported really well and I really am thankful for everything done for me. I feel as if I could be something great in life with all this support I get. So, overall my senior year has been great. I hope it continues to go this well and I hope to meet the expectations of my friends, family, and teachers.
Due to me procrastinating badly, I have to complete 3 mts in order to pass the first semester of physiology. There are about 3-4 weeks till the semester is over, but I will and am trying my very hardest. Besides that class I am doing great in the others, actually I recently completed a level 4 project for Econ. I need to present it still, but I stayed after school for 3 hours trying to complete it and still needed more time. Another class I am doing great in is of course guitar. Ms. Wills is a great teacher and without her I have no idea where I would be. About a week or two ago I even applied to csu’s with Ms. Wills.
Even with the help of my teachers I seem to be struggling. Like I stated earlier, I procrastinated a lot and fell behind in Econ and Physiology, but now I have overcome one of the classes I got behind in. I still have a lot to do in order to get an on pace mark in all 7 of my classes, so of course that is something I must do. Besides my classes, the senior project itself is easy. The biggest problem with the senior project would be my life map because I honestly don’t know anything eventful in my life nor do I know what the future will hold. I’m mainly enjoying the journal entries because I like to look back at what I have said and just laugh because I always try to change and know it is just way easier said than done. Everything in my senior has been really fun, except for the waking up early part, but that’s just life.
I feel like I have been supported really well and I really am thankful for everything done for me. I feel as if I could be something great in life with all this support I get. So, overall my senior year has been great. I hope it continues to go this well and I hope to meet the expectations of my friends, family, and teachers.
Snapped Back to Reality
A lot of things have come up since I came back from winter break. It was great, but as I realize I am out of time my stress continues to build It’s my last semester here and I have no idea what it is I want to do in life. Everyone talks about their ambitions and how they want to make a difference or be remembered, but honestly, it may seem selfish, but I want to enjoy life as much as I possibly can. If I make a difference that gets me remembered that’d be great. This does not mean I do not want to succeed, but rather I would like to enjoy what I do for the rest of my life.
One of the main problems I face now, is once again my procrastination lifestyle. Due to me procrastinating, I will not be able to attend a UC or CSU because I have not completed my SATs. I am really disappointed in myself, but I plan on going to Fresno City College. I do not know what I would like to do for a living, but with this opportunity I will be able to study guitar while finding my place in this world. Something else that is affecting me, besides how indecisive I tend to be is my lack of motivation. Besides those big factors everything seems to be going well. I am on pace in all seven of my classes and I’m starting to strive for level fours. Even if it is my last semester I can’t take it easy, in fact I should be working as hard as I possibly can, even if I fail. Failure is the muscle that builds success afterall.
Thinking back to, not last semester, but even further, my motivation has nearly tripled, although I still lack the necessary amounts to pass I am proud of my efforts. If I keep up with the work due or go ahead nothing will be able to stop me. This sense of self-motivation is what keeps me striving for more. The man of tomorrow is forged by the battles of today.
My progress towards becoming a better me (the man of tomorrow) is going to be extremely hard, but it is going well. Thanks to myself, my family, friends and everyone supporting me on my path to success. The only thing left to do is continually work hard towards my goal. Without hard work I will be as incompetent as I was the previous school years and I do not want to continue be a failure in the eyes of people. I would like to wake up and be proud of myself.
One of the main problems I face now, is once again my procrastination lifestyle. Due to me procrastinating, I will not be able to attend a UC or CSU because I have not completed my SATs. I am really disappointed in myself, but I plan on going to Fresno City College. I do not know what I would like to do for a living, but with this opportunity I will be able to study guitar while finding my place in this world. Something else that is affecting me, besides how indecisive I tend to be is my lack of motivation. Besides those big factors everything seems to be going well. I am on pace in all seven of my classes and I’m starting to strive for level fours. Even if it is my last semester I can’t take it easy, in fact I should be working as hard as I possibly can, even if I fail. Failure is the muscle that builds success afterall.
Thinking back to, not last semester, but even further, my motivation has nearly tripled, although I still lack the necessary amounts to pass I am proud of my efforts. If I keep up with the work due or go ahead nothing will be able to stop me. This sense of self-motivation is what keeps me striving for more. The man of tomorrow is forged by the battles of today.
My progress towards becoming a better me (the man of tomorrow) is going to be extremely hard, but it is going well. Thanks to myself, my family, friends and everyone supporting me on my path to success. The only thing left to do is continually work hard towards my goal. Without hard work I will be as incompetent as I was the previous school years and I do not want to continue be a failure in the eyes of people. I would like to wake up and be proud of myself.
The End Is Near
During these final days a lot has been happening, yet I do not find myself stressed about graduation. What I am more afraid of is growing up, getting a job, a family, a house, and responsibilities. To be more specific I am terrified of change, of my daily routines changing and losing the ones who are close to me. Recently I have applied to Fresno City College and plan on attending it for 2 years and then transferring over to Fresno State. I have started looking for apartments in the Fresno area so I do not have to keep traveling back to my house and the campus. Due to the life we live I will have to start looking for a job and get used to not being as antisocial as I am. Another step I have taken towards my future is completing my FAFSA. After hours and hours of figuring everything out I finally completed it. With more and more steps being completed I feel as if I am on the right track to becoming an adult.
I look forward to the day I can show my friends and family that I am becoming something great in life. There is also a lot to look forward to education wise. I believe I am smart, but once I continue to pursue my love for music and hopefully new found loves I will gradually increase my capacity to learn and become the man of tomorrow. With such little time left till graduation I will work my hardest to graduate and pass all of my classes. The only thing I am worried about, as of today, is my GPA, to me, GPA is not that important, I do not let it define who I am. A 2.0 student can know more than a 4.0 student, it does not define intelligence it defines worth ethic, this does not mean I will not strive for greatness, but rather greatness will come in due time and I will accomplish my goals.
I am most grateful for the people supporting me, my family, friends, and teachers who look forward to my graduation. They say people come into your life to either be a blessing or a lesson and I am thankful for both the people who stayed and the ones who left a mark instead of a scar. This school has taught me a lot about what to do in life, what not to do, and how to live my life. Thank you for everything Lindsay High School!
I look forward to the day I can show my friends and family that I am becoming something great in life. There is also a lot to look forward to education wise. I believe I am smart, but once I continue to pursue my love for music and hopefully new found loves I will gradually increase my capacity to learn and become the man of tomorrow. With such little time left till graduation I will work my hardest to graduate and pass all of my classes. The only thing I am worried about, as of today, is my GPA, to me, GPA is not that important, I do not let it define who I am. A 2.0 student can know more than a 4.0 student, it does not define intelligence it defines worth ethic, this does not mean I will not strive for greatness, but rather greatness will come in due time and I will accomplish my goals.
I am most grateful for the people supporting me, my family, friends, and teachers who look forward to my graduation. They say people come into your life to either be a blessing or a lesson and I am thankful for both the people who stayed and the ones who left a mark instead of a scar. This school has taught me a lot about what to do in life, what not to do, and how to live my life. Thank you for everything Lindsay High School!